Sometimes, I wonder if I missed something growing up, some essential lessons on how to be female. I often feel like I'm not quite female enough. Sometimes, I wonder if I'm a boy in disguise. Oh, I guess I can act girly every now and then, but I don't really feel very girly and when I compare myself to other women I don't seem very girly at all. I'm not often interested in the things other women seem to be interested in and I don't often understand why these things are interesting.
I've only just started wearing make-up in the past few months and I only where it when I'm going to be around other women, either my classmates or my co-workers. I started wearing it because I felt like the odd woman out around them. Also, I never feel like I'm dressed right...I'm always too casual. When I do dress up, I don't seem to quite get it. All the other women I know have better outfits, better combinations, more style and poise. I have no idea what current fashion trends are and most of my clothes are years old. I keep wearing them because they fit, for the most part, so why would I need to buy more clothes?
Oh, and hair! I'm always lost when it comes to doing something with my hair. I only wear it up in a ponytail or down. Not much in between, but even then I think I'm missing something. I've bought a few hair accessories, but I can never get them to look right. I see other women wearing their hair in similar ways to what I do, but they always make it look better somehow. I can't even begin to describe the difference.
Why do I have to dress-up anyway? Why can't I just wear my favorite jeans (with a hole in the knee) and a comfy t-shirt? Do I have to wear make-up and pluck my eyebrows? Must I wash, blow dry and style my hair everyday?
In general, I just feel awkward around other women. I feel like they have some secret knowledge that no one every shared with me. If anyone has an extra copy, can you please send me the instruction book?
I've only just started wearing make-up in the past few months and I only where it when I'm going to be around other women, either my classmates or my co-workers. I started wearing it because I felt like the odd woman out around them. Also, I never feel like I'm dressed right...I'm always too casual. When I do dress up, I don't seem to quite get it. All the other women I know have better outfits, better combinations, more style and poise. I have no idea what current fashion trends are and most of my clothes are years old. I keep wearing them because they fit, for the most part, so why would I need to buy more clothes?
Oh, and hair! I'm always lost when it comes to doing something with my hair. I only wear it up in a ponytail or down. Not much in between, but even then I think I'm missing something. I've bought a few hair accessories, but I can never get them to look right. I see other women wearing their hair in similar ways to what I do, but they always make it look better somehow. I can't even begin to describe the difference.
Why do I have to dress-up anyway? Why can't I just wear my favorite jeans (with a hole in the knee) and a comfy t-shirt? Do I have to wear make-up and pluck my eyebrows? Must I wash, blow dry and style my hair everyday?
In general, I just feel awkward around other women. I feel like they have some secret knowledge that no one every shared with me. If anyone has an extra copy, can you please send me the instruction book?
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